so...Yesterday after work Tracy dropped Kevin and I off at his house, but I absolutely refused to go inside. I really have no interest in dealing with either of his siblings at the moment. Kevin apparently talked to Kenneth (well...yelled is probably a more accurate description, but I wasn't there so I wouldn't know). ALl I know is Kenneth stormed out and basically screamed a sorry at me before storming back inside. I absolutely refuse to accept such an apology. It's useless to me if it's not sincere you know? Kevin thinks Terry did something/offered Kenneth something to make him do what he did because he said he "had [his] reasons" for doing it. What the fuck reason is there to EVER say something like that unprovoked? Even if Terry DID do something, he should know better than to actually accept the offer. -.-

     I've put up with Kevin's siblings for over a year now, and there's been more than one or two instances where I wanted to either bitch slap/punch or cuss the crap out of them. But so far, I've held my tongue and my fists. People that know me in grade school would know that back then, by now, I probably would have said or done something by now, but I'm really not sure how long I can keep up the being nice before I explode (or implode...hmm...)

     I'm tired of their crap. I'm tired of Terry's saying shit about me behind my back. Or...right in front of it if she thinks she can get away with it since she's saying crap in canto. I'm tired of trying to be nice to her, lending her shit when I don't even get a fucking Thank You in return. She only talks to me (or some of my friends) when she wants something (oh...donate MY blood so YOU can get concert tickets? Bitch please, don't bother). I tried for over 9 months to be nice, be friendly to her but if she can't even manage to respond when I say Hi then fine. At this point I refuse to even acknowledge her at all. After all, that was her first complaint about me (OMG she didn't say hi to me ONCE or talk to my loser friends who she has nothing in common with. HEINOUS.) pffft.

     I'm tired of Kenneth's behaviour towards me too. I'm tired of him going through my purse and messing with my shit and taking stuff. I most definitely don't appreciate the creepy touching. No...I have a boyfriend and it's not you , don't fucking get so close that you're rubbing up against my back. Don't touch my(or my friends' asses (or anything else for that matter) with your feet. Quit making creepy comments like Nice Ass to my friends. It's way creepy, and it makes me want to set a lit match to your as of yet un puberticised balls. >.<' I'm especially tired of the random height difference showing-off-ness. Yes... I am well aware that you are a half a foot taller than me. QUIT POINTING IT OUT EVERY DAY!. Oh...and...don't take my glasses, refuse to give them back AND FUCK WITH MY HAIR! It's not cool at all. You know what else isn't cool? Trying to fucking CHOKE ME. It really shouldn't take your father to make you realize that it's a really fucking BAD IDEA!

     I guess i'm tired of the excuse that "They're just kids" No...they're teenagers already. She's 17 and he'll be 15 in a couple of months. If she's old enough to think that drinking and smoking is ok, then she's old enough to be a fucking adult. They're both old enough to know better than to fuck with people SERIOUSLY. Maybe it's cruel to say, but I can't wait till Terry isn't in High School anymore. She won't have her "popular crowd" to be in and won't have the power to think she can intimidate and lord over people with. Maybe it's cruel, but she needs a slap in the face by reality to tell her she really isn't all that special. Kenneth... I have a small hope maybe he can still change, but it's slowly diminishing as time goes on.
   I have a pretty high tolerance for idiocy (thank you crazy family) but I can still only take so much before I start to get pissed off. I'm not even asking for all that much, all I want is to be treated civilly.

Is that so much to ask? god freaking damn....

 so...my grades STILL aren't up D; (well.. i take that back, i have 2 out of my 4 grades up -.-' ) and summer classes start TOMORROW...shouldn't they be up by now? wtfh?! D; THE SUSPENSE IS KILLING ME DAMMIT!!!

anyways, i got a housing thing. I didn't get an apartment i got my LAST CHOICE! I got a triple dorm with shared bath. But... I dunno wtf shared bath means O_o? is that better or worse than the one that just said "triple occupant" ._.'
anyways, i wonder if i would have had better luck if i had turned in my app early instead of like on the last day because i was waiting for my grades? ._.' ...whatever...at least i have a place ...that's more expensive and more cramped -.-'''
I need to sign up for orientation, accept the housing thing, and send my final transcript. ...it's so weird sending a final transcript when I don't even know what my grades are yet ._.'

...on a happier note, I got my hair cut 8D it's really short now XD 
see?


recent picture of me and kevin


my hair now 8D

it's shorter than kevins xDDD

Happy New Years guys ^^
Hope you all had a safe and fun new years ^^

I ended up not bumming at Kevin's house heh. We ended up going to his friend Michael's house and playing Mario Party 8 on his Wii. Pretty fun...I suck badly though and got like last place -_-; After playing a couple of games of Mario Party, Kevin and I went to Lyn's house and played some dice until the New Year rolled around. Kevin got tired (and was still hungry though) so we left and decided to try for Garden Cafe for some food. We drove by and it was soooo crowded we were like... eh...lets try somewhere else so we kept going and decided to try Sika instead. The food was ...ok... same as anywhere else...but a bit more pricey so...meh. AND the service was blehhhh. We spent like 20 minutes trying to get the check until finally Kevin gave up and went to the front to get it and pay. Since it was pretty late by then (almost 2 i think) Kevin took me home for the night.

This morning I came to my grandparents house and we had some ozouni(it's a soup dish we eat on new years). yummy =). Later on my family is going to go to Todai for dinner so...wee =D

...sadly though... my grandparents yelled at me for staying out so late -_-;
my grandma was all like "If you had your own place you could stay out as late as you want and we wouldn't be able to say anything, but as long as you sleep here you have to abide by our rules" blah blah. which...is fine...
but... i haven't slept here in over a month so...wtf?! O_o;
what really irked me though was when she started bashing Kevin though -_-;
she was all like "I don't have much respect for Kevin for keeping you out that late" blah blah blah "you could have told him that you'd call your grandparents or something, and if he doesn't like it tough cookies"
>.>' o...k... wtfh?! granted...I probably should have come back a little earlier since it was new years and as they like to say "the crazies are out" but...seriously now -_-;

gehh... perfect way for me to start the new year...nice and pissed off >.>'

ugh... i have a cold...luckily it's finally getting better! my throat isn't as sore, i can (mostly) breathe, my nose isn't running atm, no more fever, no more headache and i don't feel as icky as i did yesterday!

anyways enough of that XD

so, for my birthday on Sunday, Kevin took me out to Yokohama Kaigendou (i...think that's what the place was called). it's the restaurant next to mitsuwa in little tokyo. it was 6:30 and the place closes at 7 so there was NO one there...at all o-o;
well...at least that means we didn't have to wait long for food and stuff XD.
After that, we went to the arcade on the second floor so that he could work on his sociology project (in which he had to invade people's personal space)...however, he didn't actually work on it because he saw the new Max Tune 3 games...and squeed...and played XD.

after that he was dead set on getting me cake (for what reason, i have nooooo clue ._.' ) so... we went...to several places before he gave up and we went to Norms and ordered milkshakes (zomg they're HUGE...neither of us finished our shakes!) before he took me home.

Monday was Kevin's birthday, so we went out around 6 or so. Turns out he had to go to the mall so...off to the mall to shop for other people's birthday presents we went (isn't that odd? XD). After the mall we went back to his house and watched Heroes, then hung out for a bit before he took me home...not nearly as eventful as his party on Friday, but still, at least it was something? *is fishing here XD*

as for school... i had a speech! my first real one for speech class! It was a narrative speech and I did it on Jrock revolution (or...more specifically the crazy guy we encountered). sadly... i think i went over the 2-3 minute limit...which means my grade is going to be docked almost in half *cries* at least i talked fast? =/ and i was the first one up for the day...with a cold, that did NOT make me a happy camper -.-'

oh yeah, and my mandarin teacher...is making me feel like a goody goody now XD...mostly because she ranted about the class not finishing homework at home...so she ranted for like MINUTES, and then decided to check everyone's homework...only 3 people actually did it ._.' (ehehe... i always do my mandarin homework in japanese class, since araki-sensei doesn't really have me do all that much most of the time). 

Speaking of japanese class...the "new" guy that added late...annoys me ><' he comes to tutoring often, but i SWEAR he's not learning anything...or even really trying D:. He doesn't even have the freaking workbook...and is like hinting that i should give him one (um...no... you can't have mine, for one, it's all filled in with my really crappy 8th grader handwriting...and TWO, you already HAVE MY FUCKING TEXTBOOK! FOR FUCKS SAKE USE IT ONCE IN A WHILE ><')
*breathes* ... seriously I even went through the trouble of printing out the sheets that Adrienne made up (THANKS again for them!!) and...he's like "heh, yeah, i'm really going to learn these on my own" ...um...well, me and all of the rest of us have managed to pretty much learn them on our own...so...it's not impossible -.-'. and those worksheets are basically like what's in the workbook (that you DON'T HAVE BECAUSE YOU SUCK JUST THAT MUCH) and they're damned helpful so USE THEM (oh...did i mention that he left most of them AND his hiragana chart on the table in the learning centre? ...how are they going to be of any use to you that way hmmmm?!)...oh...and he doesn't really seem to pay much attention in class either. he comes in late, (how the hell are you LATE? I KNOW you're around before class starts because YOU WERE IN THE LEARNING CENTRE WITH ATOM!!! I SAW/TALKED TO YOU!!!!!><') ...and he leaves during class...for rather lengthy periods of time ...
and... gahhhhh!!! *stabbity* ><''''
...
...
can you tell i'm juuuust a bit annoyed? i mean, if you're behind...you try and catch up, not stay behind and STAGNATE not doing anything ><'
I much prefer the Yun Ting (the old chinese guy)...at least he tries, and eventually he remembers stuff D= 

...i now know what teachers feel like when they see students that don't try ><'
it's frustrating as hell D:


anyways...that's enough of my ranting... i don't THINK i've got much more to say atm so...i'll just shut up now 8Dv

 hmmm...
today, i actually had to explain to someone what hard of hearing is O_o; In ASL I was practicing with someone and made the sign for hard of hearing and she was like er? Really? What does that mean? So i had to explain it.
...for some reason i thought it would be kind of obvious...but whatever XD

...but then again... there was that time in high school when I was listening to some VK stuff and ended up going into a whole spiel about what it is...and at the end the girl was like "So they're like...chinese or something?" me: *HEADDESK* no... they're japanese (as i was saying for the past who knows how long -.-' )

um... i had my first test for mandarin, i think i did pretty well...as long as she doesn't take off points for PUNCTUATION (which she did on my quiz because my comma looked like 、instead of ，) and english that is somehow incorrect. One sentence, she said if we put "I'm also not Chinese" it'd be wrong because it's supposed to be "I'm not Chinese EITHER" ...please tell me that is not totally unreasonable -.-' (for those of you that can actually read chinese the sentence is 我也不是中国人。)


anyways...i'll shut up now =)
meeting tomorrow for tutoring... we have a quiz on protocol

anyways, my grandma's still not out of the hospital yet. She sounds a lot better, apparently it was like...a kidney infection and a UTI or something like that. Some other stuff too i guess, but not like anyone tells me anything so... >.>' My grandpa has been going to the hospital every morning around 10:30 and he come's back around 10:30 at night... =/

Oh yeah, did i mention? no one besides my one uncle, my grandpa, my mom and I know that she's even in the hospital. And my mom didn't even find out till she came for dinner on Sunday...suffice it to say she was shocked and not very happy. We were going to go visit the hospital on Monday, but my grandpa basically yelled and told us not to so...we didn't go >.>'

BUT, oooh that's not the bad part, the phone calls...don't even get me started on the phone calls. Actually, i think i will rant about the phone calls now because they're the main reason i want to stab myself in the head with a spork >_<
there are a couple of people that my grandma talks to just about EVERY DAMNED DAY! and...well, on Friday, my aunt called EIGHT TIMES (at 10, 11:45, 1, 3, 5, 6:30. 7:45, 8:30). Now, we've basically been ordered not to tell anyone anything soooo that means my uncle and I just leave the phone ringing, but EFF'IN 'ELL if after a while it doesn't grate on the nerves to have the phone ring constantly. ...at this point, my aunt thinks that the phone is broken. She calls and is like "Is it working?!?! ...i guess not... I'll call again..." >_______>' And today, one of my other aunts called a couple of times and the 2nd time she was like "...i hope you're alright... you're never home..." ...yeah...we told my grandma that she HAS TO FREAKING TELL PEOPLE because they're getting worried (I mean, she hasn't even told my uncle...that means only TWO of her kids even know she's in the hospital >.>' ) but...noooo she doesn't want to. -____-;

there's going to be HELL to pay once she gets out of the hospital and tells people, so there's NO WAY that my uncle and i are going to make it worse by either answering the phone and lying to the relatives, or telling them the truth and facing my grandma's wrath... yeah, auntie in canada can give us all the death glares she wants from there, but we have to live with my grandma so...her wrath takes precedence over everyone elses >.>'

*deep breath*　ｽｰ(￣。￣)ﾊｰ(￣０￣)ｽｰ(￣。￣)ﾊｰ(￣０￣)ｼﾝｺｷｭｳ
phew, that felt good to let that out ε=(￣｡￣;)ﾌｩ
Anyways, last week i was in this UBER emo mood like...seriously >.>' I hate emo moods, because for the most part i'm pretty ok/happy most of the time, and am rarely in a crappy mood <.< really, i'm in a seriously bad mood maybe once every couple of years (i don't even remember the last time i was in a truly horrible mood)
but i've been in a slightly better mood since i went to my mom's house for the weekend, I mean, i think just the fact of actually leaving the house at all helped, since the last time i went out was Wednesday to visit Kevin in the hospital...yeah...it's been a while I miss him and...people in general ･ﾟ･(ﾉД`;)･ﾟ･

OH yes, and another piece of info...I was talking to Kevin sometime last week...Friday or Saturday i think and this is what i said.
arashikeiko: i have this feeling...that something really stupid is going to happen
arashikeiko: like..my rat dying this week or something -_-'
GH13: aww
GH13: why are you feeling like that?
arashikeiko: i dunno
arashikeiko: ><
GH13: you are under a lot of stress
GH13: and worrying too much
arashikeiko: haha probably
arashikeiko: -.-

WELL GUESS WHAT?!?! ...yeah, i went home last night, and my mom was like "Make sure Suna has food" so... i walked over and...yeah she wasn't moving and was all cold and stiff sooo I got to go outside and dig a hole...just lovely -.-' Though, she was really really old (waaay over 4 years i think, that's a pretty long time for rats). I mean, every day we'd go over and make sure that she was still alive so...she lived a good long life ^^



EDIT: !!!!!!!!!! Ok... i guess my grandma actually FINALLY told someone, because one of my aunts called...not that we answered anyways because...yeah DO NOT WANT TO DEAL with them ranting about why we didn't tell anyone anything >.>' And...she said something about her maybe being back tomorrow? so...we'll see what happens ._.'

ok...lets try this again shall we? ~_~ (i had started to type up my post when my browser decided to be a dick)

now then... first things first YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY I got tickets for the Dir en grey concert! (tickets 41-43 to be exact :3 )

ok sooo... recap of my day yesterday.

Woke up at nine, (don't ask me why -.-'' i just did) went to japanese at 1:30 and TA-ed, mmm... this time there were TWO oral tests...and GOSH ...people suck -_-; i swear... even in J3, I would look at the dialogue like in the 15-30 minutes before class started and memorize the stuff...-_-' and... i think i have an interesting perspective, in the fact that i had J1-J3 WITH 古山先生 (furuyama sensei) so... i know what it's like in her class ^^; ANYWAYS, yeah, at the beginning of class, was a skit (it was like... what? 3 lines per person?)  In fact...here's the script: (and all of the kanji have furigana underneath in the book so... everything is pretty readable...methinks ._.' )
On Monday at school.
たけし：　ロバートさん、　はがき、　ありがとう。　旅行は楽しかったですか。
ロバート：　はい、沖縄の海はとてもきれいでしたよ。
たけし：　よかったですね。　ぼくも海が大好きです。　飛行機の切符は高かったですか。
ロバート：　いいえ、　あまり高くありませんでした。　たけしさんのデートはどうでしたか。
たけし：　･･････
Takeshi: Robaatosan, hagaki, arigatou. ryokou wa tanoshikatta desu ka? (Robert, thanks for the postcard. Did you enjoy the trip?)
Robert: hai, Okinawa no umi wa totemo kirei deshita yo. (Yes. The sea was very beautiful in Okinawa)
Takeshi: Good. I like the sea very much, too. Was the airline ticket expensive?
Robert: No, it wasn't so expensive. How was your date Takeshi?
Takeshi: ...... (eh...in a previous skit, he went to Haagen-Dazs instead of McDonalds where he was supposed to meet his date, so... yeah he didn't really go on a date -_-''' )

That's not that much to memorize...right? it's only 3 lines...or TWO if you got Robert's part...and still people can't memorize it T-T studdyyyyyy peopleeeeee T^T

aaaaanyways, after that was a カタカナ (katakana) oral test, all it was was identify two characters that we picked out of a カタカナ(katakana) bingo table of sorts so... if i said 35 and the character on # 35 was　タ all you have to say is ta ._.' and...yeah there were several people that got no points ><' even though they're supposed to know them all now...and i picked some of the easier ones T-T

ok... i'll stop ranting about that now XD. hmmm... it seems like Tuesday,  古山先生(furuyama sensei) isn't going to be there, so one of the other Japanese teachers ひぐち先生 (higuchi sensei) is going to teach instead...i've never had her, so it'll be interesting to see how she teaches ^^
so...after class, I went with 佐藤さん (Satou) to the McDonalds right across the street from the school. He was talking about how if he got a normal combo, he'd get full just off the fries, so... I said what about a happy meal? then i explained what a happy meal was XD and...he did end up getting it XD the toys in them at the moment are characters from Flushed Away. And he got Mr Toad....which... when you  press him on the table...  his mouth opens and he makes a *croaking* sound ...we made fun of Mr Toad for quite a while XD and 佐藤　 kept going キモイ！キモイ！キモイィィ！！！(eh...kimoi means something like freaky, FREAKY, FREAKYYYY...in this context anyways)
so... to make it a little better he shoved a french fry in Mr. Toads mouth, and said it was a cigarette XDDDD
...well...that croaking sound was really annoying...and...he's going to be stuck with it for a while methinks, because he took it home for his little brother XDD

that was around 4:45 ish, and i had really wanted to be at the school computer labs by around 4:30 but...i lost track of time so, after saying goodbye i hauled ass over to the computer lab, got there around 4:50, tried to sign onto a computer but it wasn't letting me sign on so i had to find another one, and i got signed on...then i had to sign into ticketmaster...which was easy enough... and i had to get to the specific page, which was also easy, and then...i sat...and refreshed...but apparently... i refreshed too much because ticketmaster decided to be a tool and LOCK ME OUT!!! (temporarily...but STILL ><) so... i sat there...panicking, because it was past 5 on the school computer clocks...and yeah... -_-; anyways, ticketmaster finally stopped being retarded and let me log in, and it was about...5:05-ish school clock time...that of which, they seem to be fast by about 5 minutes ^^; so... i managed to place an order, and was done by 5:08 school time (or...about 5:03 ish)
and...then i ran to english which is all the way on the other side of the school, and made it just in time ^-^;
after english, i skipped Geometry...because... i figured... i should probably work on my Statistics test...so i ended up going home at around... 8-ish, ate dinner, and worked on my Statistics test (that i was given like...2 weeks ago... never EVER let me procrastinate that much again on something that's not an essay, PLEASE X_X; )
and then... as i was sitting there staring at it realising that i had NO CLUE as to what i was doing...i remembered CRAP i have homework due for stats as well -_-; but...test takes precedence over homework...so i worked on the test, i asked Tracy and Emily for help and they helped a little bit, and Tracy went to sleep at like 1:30 ish...Emily helped me till...around... 3:30-ish? and then... I sat there trying to do the stupid test... my uncle usually goes to work around 4-ish...and i was still up then...and i worked...untill about 6am x-x when i finally just gave up, i hadn't even done HALF of the stupid thing ><' and i think i slept for like... a half an hour or so? and then i had to wake up and get ready for class at 7:25 -_-; icky... i went to class, turned in what little i'd done, and then i just sort of...nodded off for like probably...10 seconds or so every few minutes till about 10:30 when i finally woke up enough to not fall asleep anymore ._.'

and...now i'm sitting here...i still haven't really slept XD